my hands were shaking 

during the movie 

did you notice?

i know you didn't

and that's what i love most 

how is it 

that i get your time 

and i sit next to you 

and i watch your eyes move 

how 

did

i get so

lucky unlucky

i get to watch you sleep

and i get to feel you against 

my back 

and around me 

when you've had too much wine 

only then do you let me hold you 

we get these sunnied honeyed little whiles 

and i struggle 

because i want it all 

one, i can't have you 

two, i won't stomach you 

it'll been too sweetly saccharine 

for my bitter pickled palate 

and it would be just too good

too perfect

to have it all