i can't feel it anymore 

- my beating heart 

i wear your socks 

and dribble on your seat 

i look

and i feel watched

the more time i temper 

the more i know 

in my bones 

we are not the same

there's an expanse 

there's something 

not normal about 

me 

something that's small 

and scared all the time 

with nothing 

and i've always tried to bridge

cortort myself into forms 

lay myself down 

when you wallflower to survive 

where you pinch yourself in places 

and spaces 

you become that 

that thing 

that you promised 

would only be temporary 

that thing that you told yourself 

you'd abandon once

you got the boy 

stick your fingers into your ribs 

go on

try to find it 

we need it

the proof will set us 

free