i can't tell it

as it is

but you know that 

don't you 

what you did

hurt way more

than the words 

i use 

to tell 

this stupid story

it was never that serious

we were never that important

it was only 1 night

it was a single kiss

a few texts 

then why does it feel like

you tore me apart

put my left arm

through a meat grinder

took my foot and pulled off my toes 

gave it to a dog 

why did you cut my throat up 

into cubes

to freeze 

just to blend them up 

and eat them for breakfast

you left my heart on the lawn

did you miss that? 

it was after you popped my eyes out

and left my guts at the butcher 

because you thought it was all the same 

she never was that much different 

than some old beef 

right

well watch that slab

rise from 

the motherfucking ashes 

you shat out 

watch her haunt you 

till you take your last breaths 

watch her watch you have 

a meaningless fuck 

with that dietician

watch her smirk 

as you come 

she knows she was always going to be better