avowals

when will my wounds be claimed?

i'm 8,954 to the day 

it's sad to think 

my scars will be left to a charity 

when i stop breathing 

until then, do i wait?

for justice, for courage?

how shall i exist in this purgatory 

shall i take up new hobbies 

to pass the time 

or would it be better 

to fester 

for now, i'll let my neurons 

pass electricity to each other 

not creating or destroying 

i'll let the pressure build 

i'll sit in the pain 

that i know was meant for me 

until i forget myself

then i'll lie down 

and weep 

at the unclaimed 

and unnamed 

of what could've been

and what was