i'd do it 

you know 

walk through water 

tread through mud 

give you my most favorite

cry if you're thirsty 

bend and swerve 

only to curb 

we have it 

you know 

the thing people want 

the sweetened lemons 

and the buttered buns 

i die a little 

you know 

when you touch me 

it makes it all better 

and that's it 

you know 

what i've always 

wanted 

i can feel it starting

the cracks

giving way

to the widening expanse

it's so like you

to wait to answer 

—out of

sight 

out of mind 

just like 

it's so me 

to wait 

to long 

to live for the hope of it all 

you've got it 

your person 

your thing 

and i can't stomach it 

i'm called 

when you want to go to target 

or when you 

need a meal 

cooked and poured 

while you get 

to keep going 

nothing 

and no one 

holding you back 

what's it mean

to love and be loved

for people to miss

the way you look off and smile

after you tell a story

to be the kind

of kind that worried if 

everyone liked your food

and had a good time

to be

of the person

who described

any woman

with a good heart 

as a natural beauty

to miss the way you speak

the way you talk

and eyes of eyes 

lovely 

to love 

and 

be 

loved 

 

i miss her

the girl who used to want her hair braided

the person

who feared thoughts 

i miss her

i miss her

i miss her